~Beautiful~

You said you need me, so I drive through the rain as it pours down across the windshield. No matter how fast the wipers go I still can't see. Maybe the rain is a symbol of our relationship, I wondered. I have so many questions that I ponder over and over until my head feels like there's someone inside hacking away at what's left of my brain.

"Too much thinking", I think.

Just go blank I tell myself as I turn up the radio and light another smoke. I'm almost there. I only have my window rolled down a crack so I won't get wet and still I try to ash out of it. The ash falls on my leg, fuck I'm a wreck.

There he is. I can see his long black hair, wet from the rain, and a confused look on his face. I pull in, get out and walk slowly over to him standing under the overhang. By now I'm soaked but don't care. I shake a little from the cold. He looks me in the eye and pulls me to him. Nothing is said, just breathing. I feel his warm chest against mine and his hands on the small of my back. I just stand there feeling him feeling me.

"Your beauty is like an antique smile." He says

I don't really know what that means and am trying to think of something profound to say when I close my eyes and feel his hands move from my back, slowly run under my shirt and across my stomach. I reach up and touch his cheek; I can feel sparks inside me burning to get out. We collide with force; I bite his lip as his hands move down. All the while I can hear the rain all around us; the heat between us is scalding. No more thinking, just feeling. I taste the metal of his lip ring. God how I love that taste. He picks me up and I wrap my legs around him. We fall against the wall, I can feel my knuckles bleed but don't care.

As we stumble though the door everything crashes around us, things break, nothing could stop us. All I want is him inside. We fall to the floor and finish our clash of flesh. I know it's just temporary satisfaction, but right now that's all that matters. Time stands still if just for a few moments.

I feel like, a beautiful antique smile.